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Who doesn't like to go exploring and who doesn't like to be made all pretty? Well, I do. And so do my friends @addi_black and @brookelyn_marie, so off we went! I've got to tell you, I've grown leaps and bounds in my self esteem with this trach. I still notice that I compare myself to other women. Their necks so stinkin flawless, their eyelids sitting evenly. But something I feared before we left this day is that I would feel horrible in front of the camera, that I would feel like I looked ridiculous. That I wouldn't look beautiful because this trach would take away the delicateness that as a woman I want to hold. But to my surprise, I actually forgot all about my trach. And even now looking through our photos I barely even notice it. I am LEARNING that I am worthy of being called beautiful just as much as anyone else. And this trach doesn't take away my delicateness, it actually reveals it in a whole new way. I am proud to say that this is probably one of my all time favorite photos...I am proud of that because it doesn't hide this thing that tempts me to feel SO MUCH 'less than'. It is in clear view. I hope to continue to grow in this area not only in outward appearances but more importantly in the ways I am insecure emotionally and socially. I encourage you all to accept your details and not to call them flaws. Dont hide the things that seem like they will hold you back. Use them to fuel your drive. The very thing that logic tells you will make you weaker may be the catalyst you've always needed to get you where you need to be.